The unacclaimed me!

There is this thunder in the air,
that breaks the flow of my enraging life!

With these tides of change gushing high!
Towards a new era emerging from sighs!

There were times when emotions used to flow.
There were times when i used to complain.
But now its the acceptance that has taken its claim!

At this very moment, I wish, their was a shield!
I wish 'I' could have been annealed!

For I don't want to go back to the flow!
For I want to set free, this soul!

For i now know how to conceal,
For i now know how to maintain this inner zeal!

Its at this juncture, that i leave all the unanswered emotions, unanswered.
And fly away in the dim skies, like a bird!

Oh thy mighty skies!
Take me away with you,before this spirit dies!

Its at this dream, that reality breaks this fable,
Its now that I realize the inevitable.

But its a strange strength which now holds me,
and a smile on my face that enshadows everything.

And I do wonder!
Is there is this thunder in the air,
that breaks the flow of this enraging life?

SOME SILENT MOMENTS

Its that time of the day,

When everything around me comes to a standstill

and I start climbing my thoughts hills.

Its the time when my conscience supersedes the unconscious

I retrospect all my actions and their repercussion.

Trying to satisfy all that comes my way,

I mold myself everyday like clay.

Its more like a predicament, an entanglement,

Bound by the chain of my own thoughts,

I think,think and think a lot.

Blocking the immediate need of hour,

I work less and think more,

I think,think and think to the core.

This is one of the biggest loopholes in my life,

Just because, I always try and look the other side.

I may not take everything as a granted treasure,

and do everything just for my own pleasure.

I may leave behind many unfulfilled desires of my own,

For I am neither a mechanical toy nor a clone

I understand, that life demands a flow,

and one can't compete with the surroundings, by being so slow.

But, being a human, I have social responsibilities,

Even if it means, hindering a few of my abilities.

But,sometimes I do succumb to the need of the hour,

Don't always measure me by my actions

For may be I mean something else

and something else are your percception.

UNWINDING LIFE

Oh!dear life

Please explain yourself

I fail to realize your pace

I somehow lag behing in this race.

Is it always the irony that prevails

or is it something like

a heaven's voice that hails.

Is it the pain that purifies

Or is it the success that drives.

What is the 'ultimate' purpose

Why are we living these lives

Are we to follow the same trends

or are we to soar high in the skies.

Sometimes i do doubt my ability

and finally this thing only leads to my disabilities

But i fear..i may not overestimate

May not life again play its coin of fate

I am the energy flowing in me

I am the fear that finally ruins thee

Whenever i stop to see you by my eyes

I feel the world is rushing besides

Its then, that i cry out for help

Oh!dear life

Please explain yourself.

MY FIRST MARK

"Nature is my first love..."though it sounds a bit 'out of fashion' statement for an environment like Delhi Public School, VK and for such a tender age,but has its roots deep in my observation and experience of the world.

To prepare for JEE, I took coaching at LOCUS Institute and in the fourth lecture of our physics class we were taught "MOTION IS RELATIVE".the very first question that came to my mind was 'so whats absolute?'and my stupid mind took it so seriously that i started looking for this 'absolute'in every possible thing i could.Be it people or their opinions regarding various matters,or be it my own thoughts,which i myself contradicted every now and then,this "absolute" thing never actually found its expression anywhere.

Thanx to the lush green environment of DPS,VK and to my friends with whom every evening i used to go for a walk, that i gradually realised that this 'nature' was my "soul's solace",my absolute. Though in a strict scientific sense even nature isn't absolute,but yes considering a human being's life span it can be considered as absolute,see even to mark things absolute we need to see things relatively..:P..

Anyways this was not the only fate of that statement.Perceptions in my philosophical world related to this "relativity of motion" in physics because once again both are NOT ABSOLUTE. It was at this juncture that my physics and philosophy were binded together by threads of my thoughts.But,alas life wasn't that simple always..for my life it was a dark phase but for my soul,an enlightening one. I grew more and more spiritual in my approach without loosing on my scientific pace and now as i stand today i see my philosophical,my scientific,my spiritual worlds all reside in me "in peace"...

But amidst all this,figuring out my own life,finding for a reason for everything that happened,it really leaves me ecstatic to know that it was ancient greek who made the first ever systematic attempt to establish some sort of common grounds for belief.Also when this book "mind of god" by Paul Davies asks what is absolutely constant,is it 'logic','number','soul','god', i silently say to myself.."its the soul"..and a part of it is 'my soul'..